I didn't really begin to get done some of the things on my weekend "to do" list. Guests don't help. And neither does procrastination and/or avoidance issues.
I think I got my papers partly graded, and a couple emails sent out to old professors. Hardly the accomplishments I had hoped for. But I guess it's better than (absolutely) nothing.
B's parents leave on Tuesday. Then my dad and his wife arrive on Thursday. They're staying with us. I'm kind of anxious about it. I'm eagerly awaiting B's review of the new lady, since this will be the first time they will meet. And this will be the first time I will have spent any decent time with her. I'm really excited to see my dad actually, but her presence puts a bit of a damper on it, since it adds a level of anxiety. I feel like I have to impress her. It really should be the other way around, and I hope it is. I feel a bit "ech" by the whole thing to be honest. And basically, I'm glad B's here this time around, even though the three of us will be spending a good amount of time together without him too.
B's got basically 2.5 weeks until he starts his exam. I'm trying to think of nice things to do for him: special meals and fun activities for when he's not taking his exam. I want to make the time as nice as possible because it'll also be the last couple of week leading up to his trip. I think I'm more anxious about it than he is.
I'm just generally an anxious person right now. I feel like I'm always on the brink. Because if anyone asks me to much about what's going on (or, alternatively, I think about it too much), I inevitably break down. I still can't seem to focus on anything good or positive. I have yet to see a light at the end of this tunnel.
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