Today was not one of those days.
After getting up to go to the bathroom last night, I was awake for nearly 2 hours. That of course meant that when our alarm went off, I wasn't exactly stoked to get up, which also meant that the state of negativity that I went to bed with was only innervated, rather than mitigated with the rest I needed but didn't get.
So then, I have a tough time prepping for my classes. It's hard to be motivated to do a job at a company where you're underpaid, unappreciated, and completely disposable. When talking about levels of employee commitment in my business English class last night, my students asked me where I felt I was on the pie chart in our text books that divided workers into "truly loyal," "high risk," and "feel trapped." Obviously, I couldn't be completely honest with them. I did say I felt trapped just by nature of my visa and the fact that I couldn't get any other job. But obviously, I feel more trapped than just by the parameters of my visa.
And so my day went on from there. I can't say that it ever got any better, but I felt better after work, in that it was behind me and I had another weekend ahead of me.
With that, I'm pretty sure that tomorrow will be a day when I'm positive about more things than I'm not.
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