Day two of my second weekend was ok-productive. I studied more of the vocabulary for the GRE, and tried my hand with the analytical essays. That was thoroughly depressing. Just the thought of writing critical essays again made me shake in my boots, and of course then I extend that to grad school in general and I have a genuine freak-out. I might have felt better had I moderately succeeded in even writing out the bullet points for a argument, but as I didn't, I didn't feel better either.
I got a letter from a friend today who I've been corresponding with concerning programs at Georgetown (yeah, I know, a little too ambitious), which did make me feel a bit better. Not necessarily about getting into Georgetown (I'm not really considering it at this point), but about grad school in general and my freaking out about the GRE. Of course, she said something like "don't worry about it because not only do a lot of schools not value it to a great degree, but you can also take it over again and submit your best score." Well, yes. I think I took the SAT three times, with the same score in the 2nd and 3rd. Not only do I not have the time to take the GRE multiple times, but I don't have the money either, at nearly $200 a pop. Right now, I'd rather invest that same money in a coat for the winter. I'll probably need it more than a good GRE score.
I'm not working that much in the next week. Although I'm bummed about what will be the lack of money, I also know I desperately need that time to get my sh*t together. My list is long, and it only gets longer. I've only just begun.
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