I binged and bought a couple of kindle books that hopefully might help with my insufficient math score. One is actually called "The 5lb Book"of practice problems. So far I've done the arithmetic and algebra sections. I still make really stupid mistakes: forgetting about the negatives or just not reading the question correctly. Then I think: "If I make those mistakes now, without the time crunch,..." then what...? Then I feel pretty doomed now. Sure, it's good that I see that, but it's not like I've been doing it less because I'm aware of my deficiencies. There just seem to be some hard habits to break.
I feel time slipping away. Of course the hours at work are not any less this month. I really knew this ahead of time: that November would be busy. Which is originally why I wanted to have this done before now. Which, being that I've had the book a year now, I could have easily. Another reason I'm kicking myself.
But that's nothing I can change now. And now I'm just trying to do my best with the little time I have left. But being that I don't think I used my time as efficiently as I could have before, it's hard to have the confidence in myself now, that I'm doing the best thing and preparing in the best possible way. It's hard to know any of that when I haven't even had my head in that game for years now.
And tomorrow's another day.
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