Getting the ball rolling again.. In the middle of a sand trap.

I went in to talk to a professor at Humboldt today. Got some of my questions answered, but don't feel much better about the bigger picture. I still haven't even signed up for my GRE yet. Don't know what I'm waiting for. I have to do it soon. And I know I'm not prepared enough for it too. 

There's so much to be said for momentum. Once you lose it, it's so hard to get back on track. I feel that way about my studying (I feel like I was doing ok before Bosse's folks and then my dad came) and then thinking about how much I've lost being out of school for so long. Do I have any hope of serving in academia (assuming that I can actually get back into academia).  I want to get that momentum back. But I just don't know what it will take. And maybe I'm afraid of what I might have to give up to get there.